But; seriously. Next year I'm going to be color Guard Captain. And all I can think about is, will I make a good leader? I mean I know I've taken more than a dozen leadership classes, and I'm prepared, but being prepared, and actually doing are two different things.
I also feel bad because I think Sam is a little resentful, I am not saying jealous, I know she's happy for me; but she worked just as hard as I did. In the end I got it, and I think it upset her a little. I also don't want her to think she's not good enough, because she is. She's talented and I know she could do it.
I guess though, getting back on topic...
I'll be able to do it. I've givin this a lot of thought and have come to this conclusion.
Being a leader isn't about the classes you take, or how you take charge,
It's about having passion and the will to get the job done.
I know the only reason I wanted color guard captain, (and trust me there was a point where I didn't want it because I felt everyone else wanted it for the wrong reason i.e. to be the boss of everyone)
Continuing from the" I know the only reason I wanted color guard captain," is because I love color guard. And I want other people to do it to. To me it's all about having fun.
I want to teach someone and feel great when they finally understand.
So...Who knows how I'll do. The outcome is unpredictable. But I think I'll be just fine. I know I want to do this, and I know I can. All I have to do is have a little faith in myself and everything will be just fine.
:)
